Freakcity

We seem to have drifted, i don’t know how or why but we never do what we used too, it’s like we were a row boat torn in half by the sea and drifted further and further away from each other.

Only to find one day we will drift towards each other again, but on my journey i meet those who meet you, ...

came back home on sunday night, and all of the snow had gone, i mean i only went saturday afternoon. getting to work 11.50 on saturday was good but still tiring coz i was up early.

sunday morning i was suposed to get a lift into work, but he forgot so i rang work and told him to get me. proper r...

Looks like they found me a lift. damn them.

No buses going my way today, so work said they might get someone to risk going my way, but they may skid into the lake.

dont want that happening so they shan’t bother

Well i can’t get into work at the mo, because i’m snowed in, the gritters aint got our road yet so i’ll have to wait til half nine to see if i can get to work. Even then the gritters might not even get here so i’m stuck til 10.45. wooooo. morning on computer sounds good to me

woke up this morning and there is massive layer of snow, more than the last two days. crunch crunch crunch. <===== me walking in it. lol

and i’m working. which i dont really mind. also i got a works do at Allessandrous tonight, to celebrate being open a year. and i’ve been there since the start. ...

I’m a little fatigued today, the day was going well today, but at the end of the day someone texted my dad a bad message and he phoned me he was kick my ass when i get home for sending it, i said i didn’t but he find out who did or i’m in trouble. so i went to carl have you been sending texts of my ...

woke up to more snow

yay

Today was really different, it was quiet because it had snowed, all morning, it built in the little area behind the kitchen door going outside but no anywhere else, was worring if it carried on that i wouldn’t get home because my only bus route home is a back road not a main road so it won’t be deem...

Wow woke up and looked outside, the place is covered in snow (although its not deep enough to stop me going top work :(.) its all over the hills, the trees and the clock tower is white aswel. cool.

This is not a journal enrty of sorts it’s just a lesson (or something like that) on Dreams, i love talking about dreams

Was reading up on Lucid Dreaming and i also read about the side effects of Lucid Dreaming if you do try to do it. One of the side effects is Sleep Paralysis...

With no one in the chat room last night i decided to go to bed early, 10 o’clock i think which was good but i didn’t have the best sleep, weird dreams i had, well one dream that was weird but it didn’t go away even after i turned the light on to see if i was actually awake, went back to bed and it c...

this song is about a night i had with my ex while out with mates one time – drinking on a beach – we sort of wanted to be by ourselves and we found a spot under the moonlight and “talked” this night i will remember. but the fact is we thought we were only gone 20 minutes or so but it was an hour and...

was tired when i got up this morning but i do feel good, just a little low. but i think it’s because i’m tired thats making me fell so damn shitty, i just need to go to sleep early. Got into town and it was snowing on and off all day. which was pretty cool. paid in my cheque and went out and spent i...

Todays lesson was the worst, i couldn’t concentrate at all, i was tired, shouldn’t stay up as late as i did. and i wasn’t really with it at all, and new shoes which i aint used to using in a car yet sorta made it worse, making me stall the car about 3-4 times today. and i’ve only done that once in t...

Tonight i’ve had mixed emotions.

Whats happening to me?

What i need is a phychiartrist

Suppose i better be off to bed now, got a driving lesson tomorrow.

bye all. just read sunin’s journal, maybe i shall read more in future.

may learn something.

bye all x x x x x x 😊

im soo tired and its affecting my mood making me grumpy

i think i don’t fit in here, everybody is way too old and intelligent for me, i’m not cut out for it

i cant help snapping at people, its one of those moments where anger is kept in. but now i can feel it coming out. shouting at you peeps....

right now i cannot be bothered going to bed. just want time to think. i know what i’m doing wrong with myself and i know what i’m doing wrong with interaction with others. i know how to fix things and i need to know how to start with it. i am not an obsessive or a stalker which my friends seem to th...

as i said i’m posting the song to yesterdays thought.i wrote this on the 25th October 2005 when i also wanted him back.

it is called... Why Do You Want Him Back?

Why do you feel you want him?

the feeling comes and goes

this feeling you hate

sometimes you love it

but a long forgotten love

...

i was thinking about yesterday when i said i wanted to get back with my ex, who i finished nearly a year ago. i found the song to go with it.

Mariah Carey – Mine Again

I remember when you used to be mine

Way back when

I was too naive to love you right

But now if I only had the opportunity

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Home on sunday again, which is nice because i can lounge around on my computer. My mum wanted to clear my room out of clothes and other crap because it was cluttering my room up. i didnt want to it but she said if you dont you’ll have to go for a 6 mile walk with my dad and my brother so i decided t...

i saw an ex today, and i just said hello, and he looked at me in the way he did whenever he was glad to see me. I love/hate that look. when he walked past i wanted to shout him and talk to him. As it was me who finished him back in march 2005 i felt that he may still have liked me. so i was thinking...

This song is based on a dream i had, where i am talking pretending to be an ex of mine while being me, it is my first i pretending to be, so i say when you coming home to me and he says next week. pretending to be an ex. weird huh! but it was a dream

Not Really there

I am standing alone, her...

work today boring as anything. as usual on a monday.

carl came in to get his wallet, i always thought he ad a big dick (never seen it like)or what do you people call it well hung. he has a big massive bulge in his trousers and he sorta rubs his crotch against the side when he’s bored which makes h...

Wooo what a party, firstly work friday carl my line manager, said he would play badminton with me if i arrange it, weird coming from him as he i thought he wouldn’t want to be seen with me outside work. oh well it will be fun, want to see him in shorts.

saturday night mates 18th, most people the...