The werid and cracy thoughts of everyones favourte black guy
hmm...You know, I’ve been staring at this Journal button for a very long time. I mean.. LONG time here... like the last week of me being in here. Everyone seems to make it a statement to fill theirs in.. why should I be any different?
Well... Becasue technically I’m not very nice.
Dont get me wrong here, I am nice. I say nice things, do nice things, give nice things, hell I think I won ‘nicest person’ award at playschool when I was younger. Of course I was really going for ‘neatest person’, since they gave you this really cool ruler that could bend light and had cute little squiggly fish inside it, and I only got a stupid pen. A Pen! I have 15 of the damn things already! I dont need another god-damm pen!
Right.. getting off topic.. get back on here...
The thing is, I have very unnice thoughts. I can’t help that at all. When I see someone, my mouth would say something like ‘wow, that dress looks great’, while my mouth would spend the entire night critising every single part of her being. Hell it even critisies things I dont even notice! I could be lying in bed trying to sleep and then suddenly, it would barge in with “Hey, don’t you think Glen is stuck up? I think he’s stuck up! And stupid too! Lets have horrible sex with him!”
God I hate it when that happens.
Now it is becasue of these unnice thoughts that I am writing this today. MY exam results come out tomorrow. and I’m not worried. Not one bit. However, my progidy mind has decided to run off and do its own worrying, blasting me with constant thoughts of “you wil lfail! You will fail! you will Fail! I like cherrios! You would fail!” And I cant sleep anymore. I spent the whole of last night staying up in bed trying not to worry. I mayb dozed off once an hour or something, but I was mostly awake.. and that scares me.
I dont let things bother me at all, I am a clear thinker. If there’s an obstacle I can’t pass, I just shrug and find another way. My nanna died, a Nanna whom I loved more than anything. And yet I didn’t cry or feel sad. I just nodded moved on. I am unemotional. I dont let things get me down. I am NOT weak.
and yet these blasted exams are keeping me up at night. I cant eat, sleep, watch Tv without thinking about it. Its annoying and a hindrance to my everyday activities. I just wish this damn results would jsut come and everything would be over!
Look. Im blabbering and not makin any sense, lets just cut this short and describe my day eh?
Ok.. woke up late, as usual. Got straight onto the computer and begun my typing of the dead. Yesterday I had two girls sleep over at my place. Old friends from Bath who were in town. Of course they werent impresseed at the state of my house – or bathroom, but were happy to be allowed a place to stay anyway. We spend the day sending the link of Magical Trevor...
Everyone LOVES magical trevor
The trick that he does are ever so clever
...to everyone we knew and loved. There was quite a weird day really. Ive never had guests at my house before (mostly because my cousins treat everyone I know like sh**. they have this odd habit of laughing at my friends, and me, all the time. One of the main reasons why I can’t wait to move out.), and it felt slightly surreal. They stayed til twelve, then left for another hotel. apparently they decided on a drunken night to try and go everywhere on the monopoly board. Weird huh? then again, Ive lived here for 4 years and I havent been to any of those places. Gotta wonder what’s the point of living in the city if you dont go see the main attractions.
I stayedo n the computer all day, listening to an online radio station of uber weridness and stuff, made a crappy dinner, and ate my heart away before tying to go to bed. See, my day isnt really as exciting as I would like.
And thats it really. heh.
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