Final update
Well anyway, I suppose its time for some tender loving emotionally packed update! horrah!Nah not really, just summing up what’s in my mind really.
I have come to the realisation that I, lloyd Gyan, a man so afraid that relationships would always ruin the original friendships if things went horribly horribly wrong, is actually thinking of getting one. I know its silly, but ever since I got back its been at the back of my mind every day. I see couples walking down the street holding hands, and instead of thinking “wow.. talk about baggage”, its now turned into “Why can’t I handle that?” Is it because Im turning 21 in may? Is this the reason why I’ve suddenly become so lonely (heheh Im so ronely)?
And so what if I’m suddenly feeling this way! I have still had that massive problem of not being able to approach people I desperately fancy! If I am falling in love with someone, I can’t speak to them, make conversation, look at them, or anything... mostly becasue I feel as if they would suddenly get the hint and run the hell away! My god damn emotions always get in the way of things and screw them up threefold! Its just not fair! How do you couples manage to approach anyway? “Hey babe, nice shoes, lets go out together”? It’s the one thing I fear would happen: rejection. How do you people know if the person you fancy loves you back the same way? And what if they don’t? Do you, like, not talk to them for the rest of your life because you know that they will never love you the way you love them? More importantly: what happens to the casual sex you used to have that you enjoyed so much? Do you suddenly stop becasue you know he doesnt love you? or does it carry on?
WHATS WRONG WITH ME! I’M THINKING STRAIGHT! RELATIONSHIPS SUCK! I HATE YOU ALL! ARRRGH!
screw this. Update over.
Last modified: Friday, March 20th, 2026 at 12:19pm
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