when things go from bad to worse...
July update!!!!!!Right.. I might not be at top notch this month, as there are many various things I have missed over having a life, but the important parts shall be included, I swear! Just someone remind me what I miss out…
MTR had a exam finishing celebration that a whole bunch of us attended.. by bunch of us, I mean me, scott, bingowings (the cool guy he is) and some people not from freakcity, including ontehr man named Lloyd (GASP!) he was too old to have been named after the bank though.. unlike me.*sigh*
We went down to wagamamas for some chinese. mmmm yum.. chinese... and I had my first ever taste of SAKE! OMG its soo awesome! But I can never have it again though. awwww... ho well. Afterwards we ended up at retro, where it turns out one of MTRs friends also happened to have dated zzp for a couple of months. hiliarious! muhahahaha! I didn’t stay long though. I had to get some kip. So after a little while I bid everyone adieu and ran off home. I think. not sure.. can’t remember much of that evening for some reason.. Ho yeah matt was there I believe.. I think.. and we all left together! AHA! its all coming back to me now.... ho just ignore this paragraph and continue on..
Right, moving though the month: the London bombing on the 7/7 ruined what would have been a fun evening between me at Matt, as he was popping down to London to go home shopping. We were thinking of maybe moving in together, and as long as I didn’t try to seduce him in to bed or bring people home with me I thought it would be a blast! Never moved in with someone before, and I don’t think I would mind moving in with him. He seems pretty cool. But yeah, stupid bombers came and blew up the underground. Now it takes me a whole hour extra to get into central London. AND sean, a Scottish friend of mine in earl’s court, was caught in one of the blasts as well. I had to find a way through central London that day to see him, as he has no nearby relatives and I didn’t want to leave him on his own. I swear if I find that son of a Bitch who did that I will have their hide.
I was lucky though, other than him, no one else I know was anywhere near the explosions. Well, other than kee but he was fine, so it was all good.
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My Saturday D&D group of course was having none of this, and decided to meet up that Saturday anyway (BASTARDS! IT TAKES ME AN EXTRA HOUR TO GET ANWHERE NOW!), and for some unexplained reason, everyone wanted to commit suicide in the game, all because we want to run a Star Wars RPG next. Bastards. Just because you don’t like your character doesn’t mean I don’t either! And they call me gay. Hmph!
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lets see.. other than the bombings, as yes… the bad news of this month. Just like every month for me to have something horrible happen to me. Jan: grans in jail, feb: accept that I am a hopeless romantic and am doomed to suffer for it. March, Girlak’s dead, April: a girl says she loves me and not her year old boyfriend, may… hmm.. may was rather quiet… I’ll have to remember what happened in those months.. better read my journal.
Anyway, I need to get some hep A and B shots for university (stupid university!) so I force one of my friends to come with me to the clinic. While we’re there, we have an aids test.. and guess what? Just my bleeding luck. My friend has it. I don’t but he does. Selfishly I laugh at him in my head, and of late I think I’ve begun to avoid him. Why? Because I’m a selfish, disgusting, stupid dog who deserves to be put to sleep. I don’t mean to avoid him, but I think I was doing it because I was scared he would infect me by touch. Heh. That’s the kind of fucked up person I am right now I guess. I try to cheer him up, but I keep thinking of how I am happy I wasn’t infected by him. Why? Why can’t I be selfless for just one moment?!!? For god’s sake Lloyd he’s going to die! Why can’t you be caring and be there for him! Why do you have to be so fucking emotionless! WHAT<
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