Surrender
Nigel came home Thursday night (the night of the big stressy). It was most most welcome. He fooled me into thinking he was driving out from the back of beyond to be able to get good reception to speak to me.......as he pulled up in the driveway. That night I needed hi more than ever and there he was. Unless he reads this, he will never know – I love him so much and I don’t think he realises it. I’ve never had anyone in my life who I have let get so close to me to both understand me and to have fun and enjoy my life with. All of my previous relationships have been small parodies of what I have now.Tis funny tho......I spend more time on my own now than I ever did. I think I just like my own company. I’ve had an invite to go down the Jolly tonight (only gay club in Npton) and I’ve turned it down whole-heartedly as a) I can’t be arsed with the walk, b) I’ve no money but c) I don’t think I’d like to as I’m happy with the man I’ve got and d) I’d PREFER to stay in, watch Comic Relief and decorate......I thinks I’m properly getting old.
I saw Nicky today outside the Post Office.....he looks well and happier than he has done and I’m glad. I wish we would spend more time together as he’s one of the few ppl on this mortal coil that I’d actually want to spend time with. I even got a toot from D when he went past.....perhaps I’m not such an ascerbic arsehole after all.
I even sympathised with the Crow today FFS........what is the world coming to
Nigel’s birthday party on Sunday and we’re all (Nigel’s family – all of, Nigel’s brother’s new gf – Medina, and all), I hope, going to the quiz night at the Rover.......I’m looking forward to it soooooo much...to be finally accepted by “the family” would make me so happy....and it’s rather fulfilling-ish to be going out with a man who couldn’t hold along-term relationship, now longer than his brother, who was with a woman for 8 years, recently split and seeing another woman.........I feel like my sister.......
My neice has started to talk too 😊
Isn’t work so shit compared to REAL-life
Random Thought: BIRRA!
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