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Quietly apart

To you it may seem like apathy, this watching, this waiting

To me it seems like saving a life

I look through everyone, finding the people I keep with me

All fractured. I am drawn to the breaks, a pain junkie

Knowing I have the power to heal but not the confidence to be able

Hiding what I am, what I feel.

I am not the person you know. I am something else.

All you know of me is the kaleidoscopic reflections of my friends

From each one I draw a piece of myself

And arrange them in an elaborate persona so I don’t have to find myself

People find me agreeable as I become their compliment.

The opposite side of their coin. The yin to their yang.

All the time I am watching, waiting.

When they fall I pick them up.

And feast on their goodwill.

But now the guilt I carry with me overwhelms.

Now the sleeper will awaken

I will shine and I will fight

Even though I know the price.

As I’ve said before, my fatal flaw

The love of loss.

Last modified: Monday, February 16th, 2026 at 9:24pm

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