Freakcity

I feel like I’m falling apart.

If i knew it were happening I’d be able to stop it, but it always creeps up on me and I never know until its too late

Someone loves me and I’m not sure if the love is there for them anymore. You look at them, like a piece of furniture – its useful and confortable...

I’m going to become a ghetto whore

I don’t know what it is or why – it just sounds cool.

All is not well in Teletubby land

N and I are at each others throats recently – me not having a job is seriously beginning to give me the arse. Another double-edged sword – I dont want to work as I dont think I can hack it again – yet if I dont go to work I will drive myself slowly insane

I th...

So it is the hour of 3

I have no work to speak of and I intend keeping it that way. Employment is for fools. I have designed myself a fairly workmanlike website that I hope will spur some kind of work on. I’m building up my portfolio from my previous work which I hope will help me in my cause

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Basubarah Basubarah

Karabash Karabash

you like windy you like windy

Hows the Green Chicken today? Any fingers for Maude?

Maude! Maude! Where did you put your Karabash?

I’ve lost the apple the apple the apple of true wisdom and kingness

BRILLIANTOSO

Many chips, many Selwyn Frog...

Not one job offer but two and I’ve also turned down doing some freelance work too – sodding Access – pah

Just the garage to sort out now and all troubles vanish

I’ve even treated myself to a new haircut

Woohoo

Hurrah PC fixed!

Power supply problem. Seems all those months of DIY have burnt out my poor PC fan 😜

Had job interview yesterday – wasn’t wonderful – apparently there will be a lot of travelling.....hmm and no car....hmmm. On exiting their lovely offices I walked onto the scene of 'The Return...

Actually I’m really pissed off

I never thought unemployment would be so unenjoyable.

I’ve not worked in six weeks now and I’m sick to death of cashing in my “insurance policies” whilst the dolly birds of employment agencies I’ve signed up with continue to screech at each other like the primpin...

I’ve done my back in – urgh

That’ll be a good choice of conversation in my interview for a random job interview tomorrow.

Oooh Im watching penis operations on More4

In fact its rather gross. There was a beauty of a gayer who had balls of 22" circumference. He couldnt piss sitting down, let alone standing up and could no longer have penatrative sex. Getting his package out for the camera reminded me that I had to go ...

So one carboot sale later, I’m feeling a bit better than before

Hopefully I shall have an interview today doing sort of the job I’ve been doing before, (it’s a little step back I think – well the pay is definitely) however, it is local – so no travelling to places like SCotland, London, Birmingha...

So new house

and new problems

A sprained ankle on the 2nd of April didn’t help matters too much. I celebrated movign to a new house by spending 3 hours in A&E in the town I had just left. Two weeks followed of hopping, bashing my bad leg up and no fucker gave me a wheelchair in A&E – BASTARDS

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Im waiting to move house. One van load has gone and I’m having a teabreak waiting for it to come back with dodgy settees and etc from N’s single days.

There’s loads more stuff, but I’m not in a rush – It’s not like I’ve got replacement tenants or anything

Bah

www.mackenzieward.com/pr...

Oh my God

I had a small collection of psychologists (even the head of serivces in the county, his deputy who is the head of eating disorders) all standing round me saying how sorry they’d be to miss me

I was gutted

If only the job was decent.

I’ve got a handmade card (well its been clipa...

I woke again in the middle of the night – bolt upright – in a panic

I could see myself running, viewed from above and behind, my family was running with me, my mother on my left, my father and brother on my right – other people I knew from my past, a secretary I worked with, an old school friend,...

Apparently – the dozy sodding roofers – who have decided to come after all – have only replaced half of the guttering – Apparently – the old bit that, although needed replacing, was still attached to the wall, looks all sparkly and new, but the part which was hanging off the wall and leaking all ove...

I’ve just let work know that I shall be leaving next Friday. I was surprised how difficult it was.

Not like at the Stroke Association – as that was hard as I was so desperate to get out. Apparently if it comes up permanently they will try and get me to apply – which I was flattered by – as I thou...

Gah

This country is run by utter twats who couldnt organise a piss up in a brewery

Northampton BOrough Council can’t seem to manage the trip of 500 yards with a green box to give to me for me recycling within the next 8 weeks.

Between them, Northamptonshire Police, The Inland Revenue and th...

I’ve just got off the phone to a lovely lady from the Venn Group.

“So which parts of London would you consider working in then?”

“I wouldn’t – I have commitments now that mean I can’t be too far away from Northampton”

“Ok – well whats your nearest train station?”

"Well (erm) Northampton train ...

I got home last night after nearly passing out on the way home. I think I’ve been pushing and punishing myself too much. As I walked passed Beacon Bingo the world around me seemed to warp and I felt like something was pressing against the side and back of my head.

I’ve felt like that quite a bit ...

Probably what will be the last ever Rover quiz for a while. We started pretty slowly and came in a respectable 5th, despite Mr M and I nearly coming to blows with the question “Other than Wales, which country’s flag has a dragon on it?” and for once I got it wrong 😜 – It’s not Nepal

and for onc...

I’m about to do a very foolish thing

I’m going to Ikea on a Sunday

May the Lord have mercy on my sanity 😉

Huzzah my roof seems ok. Apparently one of the chimneys need repointing but thats about it. Though he didn’t think too kindly to my asbestos guttering hanging off 😜

Well if it falls on some buggers head, then they shouldn’t have been round there in the first place and it serves em right.

Another night, another dream.

I seemed to be in a cave with two other people. It was a bit like I was in a film scene, or level in a game, (as a lot of my dreams so to be) I didn’t know the two other people and the cave was quite large and well dressed with furniture, as though someone had made t...

I recall a dream I had last night.

I was standing on a thin piece of rock, suspended what seemed like miles in the air. I was trying to jump onto a larger piece of rock about 2 foot higher and 2 foot away. They seemed to be linked together by old vines, but the more I tried to get onto the bigge...